addictions

I think the most beautiful thing about love is the connection. when the neuron loses its connection to the rest of what binds it, it dies. I’m in the midst of a few things dying…my already weak ties to family, the salvation of what I thought could be my marriage. and it is hard. but…

Eckhart Tolle & Black Power

I’ve fought learning from non-Black spiritualists for a while, mainly because I didn’t understand what they could have really learned from life if they didn’t understand what it means to be Black in it. I’m seeing, though, that there are some wisdoms from the ether and from Earth itself that we can each access through…

Ending the culture of BS

Y’all. I’m just realizing something… society is really full of it a lot of times. Those we place our trust in – institutions, judges, politicians, ideas that don’t work, ideas that are in reality still in formation, whoever and whatever – often don’t have the answers many times. And that is because of the very…

Reconciling This Thanks-Taking Thing

So this is my first year doing the whole “it’s complicated” national family holiday based on a f’ed up history thing by myself…and it’s actually…not so bad. Woke up, worked out, self cared, ate some Thanksgivingy stuff, put on my favorite at-home tatty shirt, worked on my show, planned business stuff to make the world…

#rudyhuxtable

I grew up in the 80s, where I would see myself in big geometric sweaters in college campuses and dodging creepy but lovable neighbors with fall-proof glasses. By the time I found Lauryn, I wasn’t the same. By the time I found Malcolm and Frances, my perception became crystal. My entire existence is founded on…

Life 101: we’re every side.

A big thing that is becoming more and more clear to me. Outside of the clear villains of this Earth, we each tend to have a balance of healthy and unhealthy tendencies. All we can do is 1.examine them all 2. pay attention 3. work at joy, self reflection, and accountability. 4. Be kind to…

Personal Challenge

So, this is my biggest personal challenge.Being an activist.And humaning.I be seeing stuff like na, that ain’t right.We can fix that.And they be like, “Na, leave that right there.”And then me: But it’s broken, look.And then them: Ay, you just want to control things, don’t you? You ol controller. Ay y’all, look at her tryna…

Bliss

You ever have those moments where all the thoughts wash away into a deep, blissful knowing and you just have this dopey smile on your face you know Spirit just put in you? #andimfeelinggood #dadum #dadum #dadadadum

Black Girl Magic. Black Girl Real.

Today, in tutoring, we discussed books from her “Black Girl Magic” class that I love, from the Sankofa Homeschool Collective. As we discussed the happenings and character analysis, I began realizing that they all dealt with recognizing mental health issues like stress,overwhelm,domestic conflict,transitions,acceptance,social anxiety,jealousy,embracing and not embracing empathy for others,communicating our issues,embracing the present and…

Overwatered

I did it. I gave them my energy again. The undeserving. The unreciprocating. Just thinking maybe I could get them to get it this time. Well, it didn’t start that way. It started with me re-building block after block of my self worth. Then their reach-out. Which I knew better than to entertain. And then…

Decolonizing Science #proudmoments

Proud moment today in #decolonizingscience🖤🙌🏾 YOUNG SCHOLAR: I began conducting a case study on my sleep patterns. Me: Yeah, how? YOUNG SCHOLAR: I wanted to see if LED lights affect my melatonin/sleep pattern. So I set my timer at 10 pm, around the time my body starts winding down and I should be headed to…

Narcissism isn’t just them; it’s all of us.

I’ve been recently curious about the amount of videos surfacing on social media on the topic of identifying narcissists – and the amount of comments recognizing and separating from them in people’s lives. I’ll admit I started paying attention more when my former partner started exhibiting strange behaviors that made me uncomfortable. Shifting blame. Repeating…

The Peace of Nature

When you look at Earth from space, God, it looks so serene. You would never know the torture and torment people put this planet through. The millions of people shipped across its ocean, their spirits strewn in it. The hurricanes rushing to erase the traces of their pain. Just like Nature, right; it’s gentle and…

Do Stars Rest?

I’ve been researching the impacts of the Sun on life on Earth, and it’s been opening my mind in so many ways. Like, it makes me want to use actual terms, instead of the ones we grew up with. Like instead of “the sun is rising/going down” – saying what it really is: we are…

Loving me

One thing about me I love is I live to solve problems. One thing about me that’s tough is I live in a world that sometimes feels like it likes to live in them.

Politics, Peppers 🌶 & Hot Potatoes 🥔

There is a saying out here in Bengal, referring to the culture of politics here: “Jay jy lonkai shay hoy Ravan.” It means: he who goes near the hot pepper becomes the devil. My aunty says they could be the most passionate of activists…but once they enter into the political atmosphere here, their morals wash…

He says wait. {The Story of the Mail-Order Bride}

He says wait for him. Forgive his transgressions. All of his acts of not caring. Because he does (care) and I should take his word for it…that he revises. Plus, look at the work he does for me, the time he gives me once a week. The vacation he’s investing in for himself that he’s…